loving u breaks my heart

I really dun know what to do..
i tried talking to u ..
but i feel that u are cutting me out..
i juz feel that u dun wan to talk to me..
everyone say that u dunno what to say..
but i feel that u dun want to speak to me..

It really hurts knowing that u are ignoring me..
what can i do to make u talk to me..
loving you really makes my heart pain..
i really want to forget about u..
but i cant bring myself to do so..
WHY IS IT SO HARD!!!

TAGGED BY JOLYN

Tagged by Jolyn...!!~~

A.) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs
B.) Tag 12 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C.)Continue this game by sending it to other people I Tag
Everyone that is reading my blog....

01. What have you been doing recently?
party and going out..

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
sometimes...

03. What had happened at 10.00 am today?
eating breakfast...

04. When did you last cry?
few days ago ^^

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
nope..only believe in GOD

06. What do you want in your life right now?
dunno...

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains,or just put up your hood?
it depends..~.~

08.What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my boster..^^

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
long pants..

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
u are a great fren..good nite..

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
NO..

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nope..

13. What was the last movie you caught?
The day the earth stood still..dun watch very boring..

14. What are you proud of?
everything???

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
why must i tell u^^

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
forget the name

17. Do you have any nicknames?
yes..alot =.=

18. What does you last received text message say?
see you later..

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
around 12..

20. Are you currently happy?
i think so..

21. Who gives you best advice?
Auntie doraline =)

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
nope..dun like whipped cream..

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
no one...=(

24.Is anyone bugging you right now?
nope..

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
tiffany and siemens =)

26. Do you wear toe socks?
yup...

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
my mom..

28.Have you ever had your heartbroken?
YES..many times..and it hurts

29. What annoys you most in a person?
ppl ignoring me and make me feel invisible..annoying ppl

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yup..

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
No..never

32. What is the colour of your room?
Pink..=)

33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
No..what for..it is a sin =)

34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
huh???

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
my sister..

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
er..dunno le..

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
NO...

38. Do you have a life?.
ya..

39. Have you ever think someone died,when they really didn't die?
Nope..never think of any one dying..

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
no reason...

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
HIM....

42. Last time you smiled?
Few minutes ago..

43. Have you changed this year?
Yes.. a lot..^^

44. What are you listening right now?
nothing...

45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
nope..all alone..

46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
open la..lol..

47. Is there a quote you live by?
no idea what is that..^^

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
Ya...

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yes... :)

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
cant think of any

51. What are you doing last night at 11 pm?
having party with my dad side..

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
LOVE???

53. What song best describe your love life?
dunno...

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
I think so..

55. Who always make you laugh??
my circles of fren

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yup..

57. Favourite website(s)?
blog???

58. What's your middle name?
Pang..

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
going to youth..

60. What do you think you are like?
myself la..^^

61. Who will you choose to die with?
never think of that question b4..

62. Where have you been today?
youth Christmas party..^^

63. What game do you play often?
er.............

64. Who are you missing right now?
_____secret

65. If you have to choose between friend and love,who will you choose?
i dun like this question..both are equally important

66. What are you doing right now?
this tag la..swt..

67. Which primary school are you from?
er..seafield 3 that later to SKDOJ

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Black, Pink and White

69. What emotion you like to show?
happy la..

70. What is your life to you?
very important..every second count

71. If you have something troubling you,what will you do?
pray to God..

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
ong..

73. Who do you admire most?
er..nobody

74. Which month are you born in?
june

75. How are you feeling right now?
sleepy..sad..

76. What is the time now?
2.16 am..=.=

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
very sweet girl and caring fren..

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
never dye before..

79. Why are you doing this test?
coz i was tag by jolyn^^

80. What do you do when you're moody?
eat chocolate and pray..

81. At which age you wish to get married?
never think of getting married..maybe 27

82. Who is more important to you?
God,my saviour

83. If today is the last day of your life,what will you do?
tell all of u that i LOVE u..

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
God

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
ya..seen before..^^

86. If you have a dream come true,what would it be?
dunno..

87. What is your goal for this year?
to get good result fro pmr..be a better person..

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
ya..maybe..dunno la..

89. What feeling do you love most?
not being ignored..and ppl caring for me..

90. Do you really think it's global warming now?
ya..

91. What feeling do you hate the most?
ppl treat me as if i'm invisible..when someone ignore me without a reason..

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yup..

93. Do you believe in God?
Duh..of cause..

94. Who cares for you most?
God, my sister, my mom and my fren...i think so..

95. What do you think is the most important thing in you life?
every moment counts..

96. What will you bring when you fight?
fight need to bring what o..

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
alot..dun want to say..

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
very sad.. feel rejected

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
huh?? what two-timed suppose to mean?

100. How do you feel now?
tired..confused

youth camp!!!

I'm back from youth camp..

had lots of fun there..

the speaker was great..

learn lot of things there..

i learn more about myself...

know more about my identity..

we also learn how to make balloon Patten..

Miss everyone there..

how i wish i can go back..

went it was time to go back..

i felt like i juz got there..

we bonding with almost all the ppl there..

that is what make me miss them so much..

here are some pic..enjoy

deborah, tiffany and me

hug..

pic with kor kor james..

dirty ppl^^

sharolyn, ji chuan and me

lying on the floor..yeng le ^^

hotel toilet

after the game all dirty

listening to the speaker

zekey a.k.a lion jumping tru thr hole by jason and siemens

siemens, chee fung and ji chuan

say cheese^^

random post

Be thankful for what you have..
Be creative...
Be innovative...
Think differently and positively..
Invite the people towards good with wisdom...
Live life with no excuse andlove with no regrets..
When Life gives you a 100 reasons to cry,
show life that you have 1000reasons to smile...
Face your past without regret...
Handle your present with confidence...
Prepare for the future without fear...
Keep the faith and drop the fear..
Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs...
Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve..
Life is wonderful if you know how to live...
Enjoy Life.......
and Make A Difference.....

picture!!

din't to take alot of picture..
anyway enjoy..

5/12/2008
at sunway..watch blot..

smile ppl..^^

lollipop girls ^^

melissa pang, felyn, me and jolyn..teddy bear^^

homeless ppl^^..jkjk

felyn and melissa with their lollipop

say cheese@@

part of cool youth girls...we went and watch blot

me and sheryn..

me, sheryn and jolyn..

tiffany, felyn, me, jolyn and sheryn...

7/12/2008

at sunway..watch twilight..

melissa and felyn..pizza hut..

sheryn and melissa ong..

tiffany and me..

jolyn and su ann..

sunway..

Yesterday after church went to sunway with..
jolyn, fer, sheryn, my sister,tiffany
ji chuan, siemens, mel ong and su ann..
had so much fun..
all of us like super hyper..
first we wentand eat pizza..
than we went to watch movie..
watch TWILIGHT..
got so many leng cai ^^

After the movie ji chuan..
keep on acting like the character..
say that he is the vampire..
so funny..

dont know what to write ad..
p/s: must watch twilight^^

juz a post...

lets see..
can't wait for this coming friday..
going out with fren(at last)..
most of the youth ppl will be going..
it will be fun going out with a big group of fren..^^
hope to have a wonderful time..

I'm super happy that we are all going out this friday..
but i don't know why am i feeling a bit scare..
scare that things will turn out not happy..
hiaz..all i have to tell myself is not to think so much..

Youth Camp...^^
youth camp is juz around the corner..
14 days more too youth camp..
can't wait..ahh...
thinking what to bring there..
haha..i know is still quite early..
but can't stop thinking about youth camp..
hope many many ppl go..haha..

Hmm..nothing to write ad..
bye bye..^^

promise!!!

A friend made a promise too another friend..
a promise not to tell out a secret..
i really want to know what is the secret ..
the secret that they are keeping from me..

There are many question running in my head..
it really hurts to know that they are hiding something from me..

At times i really want to know what are the hiding from me..
but at times i don't want to know..
maybe i juz too scare to know the secret..
but no matter what..
i really wish they will let me know..

P/s: i don't blame u for keeping this secret from me..don't blame urself..

teddy bear^^

TEDDY BEAR!!!

siemens bought me a teddy bear..

so cute..it is pink in colour..

wondering why he bought the bear for me??

actually it started like this..
i said that he owe me a teddy bear(was juz playing with him)

and i keep on asking him to buy me one..

and he promise to buy for me..

i thought that he was juz joking..

couldn't believe that he really bought it..

I'm like super happy and speechless..

p.s. thx siemens..u are such a good buddy..love ya..

here are some pic of the teddy bear^^

pink teddy

thx siemens^^

life goes on

Beautifully stated....
As we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will..
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time..
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken..
You'll fight with your best friend..
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did..
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll lose someone you love..
So take many pictures, laugh as much as u can, and love like you've never been hurt..
because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back..

happy or sad the day will still go on..
so why not be happy thru out the day..
DON'T GIVE UP EASILY..
even if someone hurt u..
be strong and stand up once again..

friends

All friends have their ups and downs,
and sometimes you need to say sorry..
Don't wait for the other person to do it..
you will never know what will happen..
Its nice walking together with an umbrella in the shade with a friend...
It's great and stimulating to get loving words from a friend..
Even being with a friend talking nothing is a pleasure ..
Even a tragedy being with a friend seems comedy..
Silly things too, seems so nice when it's done with a friend ..
Decision with a friend is easy, cos they will decide on what u like..
Life with a friend is heaven
Life is sweet having a friend first..
Remember, everyone needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all,
just remember this and take comfort in knowing somebody cares about you and always will ..
One of the best things to hold onto in this world is a friend..
In times of trouble,
In times of need,If you are feeling SAD,You can count on a friend to be there...
they will give you a wink,Until you smile, give you a hug, And stand by your side...
friends will always be there for you till the end..

FRIENDS FOREVER

WRITTEN WITH A PEN

SEALED WITH A KISS

AND WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN

CHERISH YOU FRIENDS

Good luck form 5

wow..so long never update..
i think got more than one week i never update^^
lazy to think..summore nothing much happen..
so dont know what to write..

SPMer
to all form 5 good luck for spm..
jia you o..gambeteh..
dont over stress ya..
all the best..^^

i am bored..
nothing to do at all..
boring boring boring boring..^^

btw i cant wait for youth camp..
hope that day come soon..
it will be on the 17-20 dec
YOUTH CAMP HERE I COME ^^

what girls is thinking

when you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back
and smile..

When a girl bumps into your arm,
while walking with you
she wants you to hold her hand..

When she wants a hug,
she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her
mind..

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply..

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a
few seconds,
SHE IS NOT FINE AT ALL

happiness??

some one told me this..
learning to let go is key to happiness..
but it is never easy lo let go..that i know for sure..
at times i told myself that i have to let go of u..
but when i want to do so..suddenly u treat me so good..
and i juz cant let go..there is a feeling that maybe i dont have to let go..
maybe holding on is a right thing to do..but i was wrong..
u went back to ignoring me..stop talking to me..
sometime i ask myself..is it that i cant let go..or i juz dun want to let go..
holding on to this makes my heart hurt..
i wonder why are u acting like this..
did someone told u someting..or u juz dun want to talk to me..
i juz wish that u will smile at me..talk to me..treat me as who i am
that is all i am asking for..is that to much to ask ??

now i really understand the meaning of 'the hardest thing to do is to watch the one u love,love someone else..
the worst thing is to know tat ur close friends like the same guy u like..
and she tell u that she is sorry..
for sure u will feel hurt..but u will never hate them for that..

i juz want to be who i am..
i am not fine at all..
i'm so tired to telling everyone that i am ok..
that i am fine..
tired of acting being FINE..
sometimes i juz feel like screaming..crying..
but i cant..i juz CAN'T..
i dun want to make my friends feel sad too..
they also have their problems..and i dun want to make more worst for them..

sunway...

both my best fren(hui mun and sharon)

yesterday(27/9/2008) went to sunway with Sharon and Hui mun..
so long never go out with them ad..
we had alot of fun taking picture, playing and trying clothes..
first when we when there we wanted to go watch movie..
but there was so many ppl and the show we wanted to watch was ad full..
so end up never watch any show..so sad..
hui mun bring us go play arcade..the one next to the cinema..
at first me and sharon dint wanted to go in..coz dint like the noise..
but hui mun keep on asking us to go in..so we go in lo..
me and hui mun played a game..dont konw what is the game name..
the game we have to shoot all the spider and other insect..
me and hui mun was screaming throughout the game..
kesian sharon standing there closing her ear..
than sharon told us that every one was looking at us..so embarrassing ^^
we also played a game that need us to use our hand to hit..play until my hand so pain..all red @.@
after playing for so long we went to see clothes..
we went in every shop we see..it was so fun..we keep on laughing..
we went in a shop call treat..hui mun tried on a clothes..
than we started to take pic..went we went out of the shop..the worker there said 'next time want take picture ask me to take with u all'..it was so embarrsing..me,sharon and hui mun quickly went out of the shop..^^
me and sharon walk until our leg feel like breaking off..^6^
at around 6 something we went to KFC to eat our dinner..
while eating there was a guy siting next to our table look at us like one kind..
so scary..we all want to eat also cannot..feel so pressure..stupid guy..
after eating we went to the arcade again..hui mun la..want to play..
went playing half way that we remember tat my mom say she will be coming at 7.30
when we look at the time it was ad 7.27..and i haven't buy my sister stuff..
so we hurry went and buy my sister things..so tried..
went we went to the main entrance my sis say now only the coming out of the house..=.=
so we went and find place to sit..our legs was like going to come off ^^
hmm..than went reach home watch tv until 11 something..than went to sleep..cannot tahan ad ^^ too tired liao..
pictures

hui mun,sharom and me

at starbucks



smile..^^



me and hui un at starbucks

TAGGED BY AARON YU

1)If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
sad and hurt..

2)If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to have what i always wanted

3)What will your dream wedding be like?
hmm..haven't think about yet..

4)Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
sometimes..

5)What's your ideal lover like?
hmm..kind,funny and of cause love me..

6)Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
being love by someone..

7)How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
it depends

8)If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
still continue to secretly like him..

9)Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
yup..alot

10)Is being tagged fun?
no..

11)How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
i still be who i am..ME

12)Who are currently the most important people to you?
my family

13)What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
hmm..fun..

14)Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
both also dont want

15)What's the first thing you do every morning?
non of ur business.^^

16)Would you give all in a relationship?
no..u will end up getting hurt..

17)If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
depends which one love me back..

18)What type of friends do you like?
will always be there for me..

19)What type of friends do you dislike?
er..friends i dislike usually are not my friend

20)Tag 6 people
1)YOU
2)YOU
3)YOU
4)YOU
5)YOU
6)YOU

the past

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else...
why is it so hard to forget about the past??
why do we let the past keep on hunting us??
why cant we juz let the past go??
why is it so hard to forget about the person..although that person hurt u??
but so easy to miss the person..
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players???
if love is never fails..why are there so many ppl getting hurt??
but if u love something...let it go...
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it was NEVER meant to be yours...
sometimes in life is all about letting go..
that is the only why u can move on with life..
learn to let go of the past and move on..
but the question is CAN I??

boring life..

so long never update ad..^^ lazy to update..
today as usual when to school..
got some ceremah about car for guys at dewan..and we girls go to bilik muzic..
suddenly than teacher ask the girls to also go in..=(
so boring and have no idea what the guy talking about..good thing i brought my book to read =)after rehat when back to dewan..play uno..so fun..play until crazy..
we also played heart attack.. all of us keep screaming..
play for awhile only coz my fingernails keep poking swee yen hand..kesian her @.@
hmm..tmr not going school^^..lazy and very boring..nothing to do in school..
but dunno what to do at home..got nothing to do..no show to watch..
sad man my life^^boring life..
no one bring me go 'kai kai' so sad..thought after pmr get to go out and have fun after studing so hard..but until now havent even go 'kai kai'..so sad wan cry ad..sob sob..^6^
ok la..stop until here..

hmm...

today when to church..been so long since i when to church..
it feel so nice get to go to church after so long..^^
hmm..today in church learn tat we have to be on heart wiht others..
life is like a puzzle..u need all the parts of the pieces to complete the puzzle..
we must also put others first than our ownself..

Basketball!!!
who can teach me how to play basketball??
i wan to learn how to play...who can teach me??
need to exercise le...so long never exercise ad...
everyday only eat eat eat...fat lo.. t.t
anyone wan teman me go jogging^^
ok la..nothing to write ad..
bye bye..

PMR is over

hello...
finally pmr is over..freedom at last..no need study ad lu..for now ^^
hmm..dunno what to do..dont have any plan yet...
very boring le nothing to do...continue like tat can die eh^^
cant wait to go out with fren any enjoy..^^
long time never go out ad..need to relax the brain..if not later go crazy..lol^^
to all pmr student must enjoy kau kau ya..
hmm..dunno what to write ad..@.@
ok la..tat is all for today..bye..